Why i have to Cry??

There is one uneasy feeling that i felt since this afternoon.
I was wondering what bad situation would happen to me.
It was really annoying. It was make me sick.


Until few minutes ago. I opened my Facebook, and i saw "that" word in my FB home.
I was feel nothing in the begining. I just look at "that" properly and smile.
And said "finally, they announce "that" thing".

I'm happy for both of them. But, I dunno what happen.
There are a little bit water falling from my eyes.
Yeah, it's tears.
I wondered why i cry.
Without i realize them. They flow more and more.
I started felt there are many dwarfs banging in my heart.
It really hurt. I can't stop my tears until now i write this.
It hurt. It hurt.. MY HEART..
why i have to cry?

even "Astagfirullah al adzim" that i say thousand times can't stop my tears, can't stop that damn dwarfs until now.
Astagfirullah al adzim
Astagfirullah al adzim
Astagfirullah al adzim
Astagfirullah al adzim
Astagfirullah al adzim
Astagfirullah al adzim
Astagfirullah al adzim
Astagfirullah al adzim
Astagfirullah al adzim

YA ALLAH.. help me.. it's really hurting me.
stop it please!
please!

I want to pray for the both happiness. I really really want..
BUT..



I dunno what to do. Until now, i just..... CRY.